Hope deferred

Tomorrow is the day that my proposal is supposed to be presented to The Powers That Be.  Unfortunately, that’s is not going to happen.  I’m more than disappointed; I was really ready for this phase of my life to draw to an end.

This morning I received an email from my supervisor that she sent at 10:30pm my time (South Africa is an hour behind us), and she says that I’m closer to begin done, but I have missed the presentation deadline.  I have to get this draft to her by Friday.  I can’t even begin to think that this might be the final product, though it could be the end.  That would be utterly delightful.

I am clinging to Romans 5:3-5:  “Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us” (ESV).  I feel like I’m stuck in suffering, though I may be in endurance.  I’m not quite sure whether I’ve developed any character through this yet, but I am trying to rejoice in my sufferings.  I’m grateful that God is patient with me!